I finally said it. I realized how much I hate that class when after the chorus concert tonight I cried the entire drive home.

Why did I cry? Because my chorus sucks, we looked like fucking idiots next to vocal ensemble and select woman's. We can barely sing in three-part harmony and the other two were doing five and six part. We had ONE acapella (no instruments) song and since we kept screwing it up we had the pianist play it with us. The other choirs sang ALL of their songs acapella.

Yeah, I realize that it's my fault because I didn't audition for a better choir, but I didn't know that concert choir was a complete JOKE.

Lately I've been feeling like I'm losing any and all talent I ever had. I didn't get a part in the musical, I auditioned for two youtube groups and didn't get into either (one AMV and one cosplay), I didn't get the ensemble part I wanted in the musical (I wanted to be a hunch but I got in the jungle with half of the damn cast), and I just feel like I'm losing my singing ability.

My mom said she'll look for a voice teacher but knowing her, she'll forget. Even if she does find one I know that they won't be nearly as good as Miss Jenn, my ninth grade voice teacher.

FML.

... Damn, I'm really complaining a lot, aren't I?

... So... How was your day?